I’m telling you because all that context, all that work, all that growth, forms the basis for my last act of courage in this fight; my decision to forgive you.

The one thing I will always be is permanent.

In my heart I wanted so much for it to be good, I needed it to be good. If we’re being frank about things, I deserved that.

That search and desire to grow is what led me here and now it’s leading me in a direction I don’t yet understand. I have to follow it, no matter where it leads me.